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The post you can see above is for the girl this all is about
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She’s about to visit this blog … I’m sorry that it’s only in Slovak but later I will translate it
At least chitien and other regular visitors may appreciate it
Thinking …
There are two girls …
one promissed me her lifelong friendship … and I rejected…
another one wanted to give me her love … and I refused this offer …
I am …
a, stupid
b, sincere
c, a dreamer
d, in love with the first one
What do you think? … I’d say that all of them describe me right now …
TRANSLATION>>>
Su dve dievcata
jedna mi slubi jej dozivotne priatelstvo … a ja to odmietam
druha mi chce dat svoju lasku … a jej ponuku tiez odmietnem
Som …
a, hlupy
b, uprimny
c, rojko
d, zamilovany do tej prvej
Co myslite? … povedal by som, ze z kazdeho trochu
Diary entry Oct 19 2007
This day was really fucked … I had to pay a fine … I had money I wanted to spend with HER on a “perfect evening” … or it could be named “one last appeal” or “the end”… I don’t know … but the point is that I was still saving up money for this evening … and now I’m broke …
That’s all …
Current amount of money I need: 82%
Things I miss
This poem is still incomplete … but I’m gonna post here all I have … Probably I will change something in it later … When I write something new I will edit this post
Things I miss (incomplete)
Except from all the things I have and need
There’s a whole lot more I want
Maybe you could call this greed
But without them I feel so gaunt
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I miss your kisses
The moments of finding my lost paradise
When the whole world just make coulisses
And everything seems to look so nice
I miss your smile
Which makes my day worthwile
This smile seen on your lips
Fondles my body in bliss
I miss the hours we spent together
When it was so cold and dark outside
But we didn’t mind the weather
Because we had a place for us to hide
I miss our neverending phone calls
Although we were only 15 mins away
Between us there were buildings’ stone walls
And at last the phone bill we felt OK to pay
I miss the way you used to say my name
Whenever I was at house of yours
And I’m afraid that it will never be the same
And I will never hear the fire in your sweet voice
…but most of all I miss you
Forming your name of wooden toothpicks
Looking at you through the glass of wine
I’d rather swim through the river Styx
Than not to see you being mine
TRANSLATION>>>
Veci co mi chybaju
Okrem veci ktore mam a potrebujem
Je ovela viac ktore chcem
Mozno to nazyvas nenasytnost
Ale bez nich sa citim taky prazdny
Chybaju mi tvoje bozky
Chvile ked som nasiel svoj strateny raj
Ked cely svet robi len kulisy
A vsetko sa zda by take pekne
Chyba mi tvoj usmev
Kvoli ktoremu mi den stoji za to
Usmev na tvojich perach
Ma neskutocne tesi
Chybaju mi hodiny co sme stravili spolu
Ked vonku bolo chladno a tma
Ale neriesili sme pocasie
Lebo sme mali miesto kde sa schovat
Chybaju mi nase nekonciace telefonaty
Aj ked sme boli vzdialeni len 15 minut
Medzi nami boli len steny budov
A telefonny ucet, ktory sme radi zaplatili
Chyba mi sposob akym si hovorievala moje meno
Vzdy ked som bol u teba
A bojim sa, ze to uz nikdy nebude take iste
A uz nikdy nebudem pocut ten ohen v tvojom sladkom hlase
…ale najviac zo vsetkeho mi chybas ty
Vytvarat tvoje meno zo sparatok
Pozerat sa na teba cez pohar vina
Radsej by som preplaval cez rieku Styx
Ako by si nikdy nemala byt moja
Diary entry Oct 05 2007
I had a great time with HER again
… A few of our friends met at a tea room yesterday and it was completely refreshing evening
… I feel pretty relaxed now
… HER presence makes me feel great … SHE’s like the sun … when both are gone, it’s cold and dark outside …
For a few minutes we were lying there like … >< this close
… I felt happy
… I mean really happy …
You know it … the moment when you’re not sure what to do and what not to do
… I wanted to kiss her so much … but all in all I’m glad I didn’t do it …it would only complicated thigs … I didn’t want to end that moment … I wished it had never ended … and I hope that one day it wouldn’t have to …
TRANSLATION>>>
Zase mi bolo s nou skvelo … Priatelia sme sa stretli v cajovni a bolo to super … citim sa dost oddychnuty … JEJ pritomnost mi robi strasnu radost … je ako slnko … ked su obe veci prec … je chladno a tma …
Chvilu sme tam len tak lezali … >< takto blizko … bol som skutocne stastny …
Bola to jedna z tych chvil, ked si clovek nieje isty, co urobit a co nie … tak velmi som JU chcel pobozkat … ale konieckoncov som rad, ze som to radsej neurobil … nechcel som aby ta chvila skoncila … a dufam, ze raz nebude musiet …
BLUE – Breathe Easy
You surely know this song … I have played it recently … after a very long time … and it was like … description of my situation …
it’s really suprised me …
For those who don’t know what I’m talkin ’bout here’s a part of lyric :
Cruel to the eye
I see the way he makes you smile
Cruel to the eye
Watching him hold what used to be mineWhy did I lie?
What did I walk away to findCurse me inside
For every word that caused you to cry
I won’t forget, no Iwon’t baby,
I don’t know why
I left the one i was looking to findOut of my mind
Nothing makes sense anymore
I want you back in my life
That’s all I’m breathing forI can’t dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There’s no air…